ᨳິ ׂ 𓈒 𝒊 𝒇𝒆𝒆𝒍 𝒏𝒖𝒎𝒃. ྀ ͚

      ⤷ ゛ i feel tired. i feel hated. i feel...numb ig?

i've just had the worst falling out of my life. like i've had falling out with friends before but this hurts like no other. i mean i was friends w/ one of them (R) for nearly eight yrs and she just dropped us (me and my friend P) bc she suspected that P 'hated' her. this happened a few days ago yet we've still no idea why she suspected this. the running theory me and P have is it's bc R and our other friend (J) have recently started dating (well 3 months and they made us guess they were dating instead of telling us, different story) and as one might guess it changed the dynamic of the group. they are always holding hands or hugging or constantly touching eachother in someway, obviously this makes me and P slightly awkward bc as previously stated we've known R for 8yrs and J for 3. they made a big thing abt me and P acting weird and apparently 'ostrising' R from the group. we're not exactly sure what J meant by this when he said it.

bro i feel so stressed abt this and genuienly ill. i want the throw upˎˊ˗